"6"


MOSQUITO
Sitting here in my canvas kingdom
I rule the world with my knife and fear
Playing guitar and singing folk songs
The seconds tick, the time is near

Smell your skin like a mosquito
Not satisfied until I explode
Drawing blood in a feeding frenzy
My little girl, you're never going home

All that I want
Scent of your sweat
Warmth of you skin
Beat of your heart

This is the time to say goodbye
Because I am your destiny
Look into my eyes before you die
Now you, you belong to me

All that I want
Scent of your sweat
Warmth of you skin
Beat of your heart

Your neck in my hands
Your blood on my teeth
Your scream in my ears
Smile on my face


CHILD ALONE
Lazing in the summer shade
Underneath the big tree
The two of us are here alone
Where no on else can see
I touch your little ankles
And rub your skinny knees
Legs so smooth and white
I'm glad your here with me

Nothing else exists
And I am not alone
Except the two of us
I will not be alone
Can't stand the pain
The pain of being alone
It burns in my head
Charred, scarred and alone
Child alone, I'm alone
Child alone, I am so alone

Stroke the blonde hair shiny
Lift the frilly flower dress
Look into her big blue eyes
Everything is a mess
Take a long deep breath
And slowly let her go
She runs into the sunshine
Already the feelings grow

Where are you going
Don't leave me alone
Where are you going
I cannot be alone

Daddy don't touch me
Mommy don't leave me
Daddy don't hurt me
Mommy that hurts me


GHOST ITCH
The whole school is talking about me
And all of the kids they stare
They all want to see the digits
The digits that are not there

Not there

Temporarily distracted
Mr. Ramseyer left me alone
The only sound I heard was
Ripping flesh and grinding bone

Grinding bone

No more high fives
No more peace signs
No more okie dokeys
No more finger fucks

And worst of all is the ghost itch

Keep a steady eye on the saw, son
Concentrate on the spinning blades
Because what god has given you
Powermatic can take away

Take away


INDIAN GIVER
You said it
But you did not mean it
You said it
Just to hear it

You took my happy day
And you threw it all away
What was just a test for you
Destroyed me anyway

You said it
But you did not mean it
You said it
To see just how it felt

Like a pin prick you deflate me
And watch me slowly fall
Three words the only sound
As I come crashing to the ground

You gave it to me
Then you took it back
You took it back

In mingling limbs and sweat
Came words that were not meant
What I thought was the beginning
Turned out to be the end

The end


DEEP SLEEP
Gone too far this time
Maybe I can't come back
Further and further I drift
Further away from you

I am sinking
I am sinking fast

You seem so small now
Waves they pound my head
Is it too late
To wave and say goodbye

I am sinking
I am sinking fast

I'm going down
The panic does set in
Desperation clouds my mind
Liquid murk surrounds me
Going down for the last time

Just going to raise my hands
Sink into the sleep
Let it all surround me
Surrender to the deep

Every limb an anchor
Watch it all go by
Every thought a scream
That no one will hear

Just going to raise my hands
Sink into the sleep
Let it all surround me
Surrender to the deep

Dangling at the top
My feet touch nothing
But I'm ready to try
To rest awhile at the bottom


FEELING THE FREAK
I am sick of your baby talk
I am sick of your goo goo eyes
I am sick of your touchy feely
I am sick of you secret smiles

I hate your love
Loathe your happiness
I hate your love
Loathe your happiness

I am sick of standing outside
I am sick of not being in
I am sick of being five
I am sick of not belonging

I hate your love
Loathe your happiness
I hate your love
Loathe your happiness

Feeling the freak
Feeling the freak